What once was one...

i trusted u...
i thought u luvd me...
u promised...
u swore...
until one of us fell for the eternal sleep...

i gave 100%...
i left everything behind...
u lied...
u gave hope...
until i felt it first hand...

the sight of u kills me..
the sound of ur voice kills me...
so would u kill me??
at least my death wont be that gruesome...
i prefer u end my life rather than someone else...

u still have the 'key'?
our 'key'?
despite everything ive said and done...
despite every word i took and gave...
ill still wait...
i wont lock the slides...
i wont lock the bedroom door...
ill just wait...

u wanna know why?
ure my 'hopegiver'....
ure me in a gurls body...

so would u come?
keep me company like u used to...
pour everything out like tea from a pot...

i know things are different now...
for u especially...
i saw the smiles...
the red cheeks...
the face of satisfaction...
yeah i did...
and u know how my brain works right...
i imagined every position manageable...
thats just me...
negativity likes me...

but tell me...
is all of this true?
do u really want me to dissapear from ur life?
wut about the good times baby?
why throw everything away?
weve been thru worst situations havent we?

i am wut i am today because of u...
u will always be a part of me...
i know im suppose to dispose any feelings that i have left of u...
but i dont want to...
i refuse to...
yes it hurts...
but im human...
i guess thats just the way things work...
luv is twisted...

to hate...
it is easier to hate then to forgive...
still each day i pray...
for some miracle to come my way...

i am ur number one...
right?
ill always be ur number one...
and no number beats number one...

Wednesday, 26 August 2009